My desire...

Friday. Finally.

It was a good week, but I am so glad to step back from the daily chores and responsibilities for a moment. The children and I have joined Jon on a business trip to the desert and I am fully anticipating a great day. We worked hard on Monday (President's Day) to allow some time off at the end of the week. It was a fabulous feeling this morning, waking up next to Jon, and not feeling the urgent need to get up and start the day. Leisurely mornings are rare in our household, but I sure do love them!

I've got a million things whirling around in my head, gripping my heart. There are things to work through, to make right, and to understand. I feel the Lord working in me, and though I am filled with hope and thankfulness, I am fully aware that He is taking me to where I have not been before. I have a more real longing and need to know Jesus and to be known by Him.

I read this recently, and though I don't know a thing about the author, I have returned to his words several times. I don't want to be held back by doubt or fear. I want to fully know the power that is at my disposal through the work of the Holy Spirit. I want to walk, moment by moment, in a relationship with that Spirit.

“I dare to say that it is possible for those who really are willing to reckon on the power of the Lord, for keeping and victory, to lead a life in which His promises are taken as they stand, and are found to be true. It is possible to cast our care on Him daily, and to enjoy deep peace in doing it. It is possible to have the thoughts and imaginations of our hearts purified in the deepest meaning of the word, through faith. It is possible to see the will of God in everything, and to receive it, not with sighing, but with singing. It is possible, in the inner life of desire and feeling, to lay aside all bitterness, and wrath, and anger, and evil speaking, every day and every hour. It is possible, by taking complete refuge in divine power, to become strong through and through; and where previously our greatest weakness lay, to find that the things which formerly upset all our resolves to be patient, or pure, or humble, furnish today an opportunity to make sin powerless—through Him who loved us, and works in us an agreement with His will, and a blessed sense of His presence and His power. These things are divine possibilities, and because they are His work, the true experience of them will always cause us to bow lower at His feet, and to learn to thirst and long for more. We cannot possibly be satisfied with anything less than to walk with God—each day, each hour, each moment, in Christ, through the power of the Holy Spirit.”
Bishop Handley C. G. Moule (1841-1920)

I am encouraged also by the Psalm (the chapter and verse I cannot recall at the moment) that says the Lord will give us the desires of our heart. He can give us what we desire, but He also gives us the desire itself. And he gives good things. I think he has given me desires that can only be explained as coming form Him, and I see newness in what my heart is seeking. I feel lead to pray differently. And I walk by faith.

Lord, help me.


Katherine